PART 1 what's going on with us? PLEASE help!?

I just don't know what to do. So here it goes and sorry it's long but i need help. I live in a small town and i live next door to all my family. I was 12 years old and i walked to my cousin's house. So my cousin (Adam) and I were walking to the back of his yard when our friend showed up and introduced us to his cousin.... let's call him Edward. (i'm obsessed with twilight :D)... well edward had just moved here from cuba and didn't speak any english. but we were instant friends. we became best friends and his english got better. he told my mom that i was his only friend. i was his only friend for a few years. everytime he would do bad in school, his dad wouldn't punish him by taking video games or tv away. his dad would punish him by not letting him see me. edward's dad told my mom that I was the only thing that he could think of to take away so that edward could be better at school. so sometimes i'd see edward everyday and sometimes i'd go a month without seeing edward. he lived in my street. when edward would come to my house, the other kids in the street would throw rocks at him on the way to my house, but he still came everyday anyway. one day we were at a swing. it's a huge swing connected to a huge tree. it's our swing. we were there and he told me for the first time that i was pretty. and then he sang a song to me in spanish... we even built a club house together. the years ped. i was 17 and had just gotten my first car. but it needed touching up and edward and his family are mechanics. i had already gone awhile without seeing him. after my car was fixed, he was coming to my house everyday again. from morning until night he was with me. one day i went spend the night at my friends house. the next morning when we were driving in the street, i looked in the mirror and saw him on his bike behind the car heading to my house. later i asked him how he always knew when i was going home and he told me that his stepmom makes him stay out of the house during the day. it was summer and i was horrified. i live in south louisiana where the heat index can be in the 100's and the humidity is high. i asked how did he drink??? and he said that there's a water hose in the shop. since that day, we were even more inseperable and we were completely in love. then hurricane katrina happened. we were seperated for the hurricane and he knew i wanted to stay home with my great grandparents and my grandparents. he kept calling me to make sure i really did evacuate. i did against my will. my dad more or less grabbed me and forced me in the truck. when we got back to see if our houses had damage, edward came back too. we checked on our clubhouse and it was still standing! a clubhouse that 2 children built with no prior skill was still standing. i had damage on my own house and our little clubhouse was there surrounded by fallen trees. it was amazing. we had no electricity and it was a cool 98 degrees everyday lol. we would go swimming, ride bikes, play board games, i would read harry potter to him (since he doesn't read in english well), and when it was too much heat, we would fan each other with a piece of cardboard. it was august 31, 2005 when i finally said "i love you" back to him. he had been telling me "i love you" for 2 months already. everything was perfect. then i heard talk of another girl... but how could that be when he was with me everyday at all hours? one day, he just stopped coming over. i was getting sick, wondering what was wrong. also i had found out that a few months before when he was fixing my car and we hadnt seen each other in months that he got a girlfriend. it was just a school girlfriend and he didn't see her at all. but they didn't officially break up until after 7 months of us dating. i wasn't too mad about it because they hadn't kissed or saw each other at all. but when the girl didn't get it that they were over, he let her know that yes it was over. she figured they were still together since they hadn't officially broken up. i know that for a fact. anywayz, it was january 1st, 2006 that he broke up with me. with no reason. i said "i thought you loved me" and he said "i did"... i was mortified. i was dead inside and i hated myself and i went through guy after guy trying to get over him. i stopped dancing, and that's something that i'm unbelievably good at. i hated everything. then i met steven.... we dated for 10 months. neither one of us loved the other. i still loved edward. then one day i was at steven's house and i found out that i was pregnant. i was scared... i didn't love steven... and eventually steven would go back home to france. i was looking forward to him leaving. eventually steven left as planned. i was obsessive all of a sudden. everyday i would walk outside or ride my bike in the street. i couldn't stop moving. i was afraid that i would get big. edward's cousins also moved to a house in the street. one day me and my mom were walking in the street and since we were old friends of th